Revision of Oh Fuck from Thu, 01/25/2007, 2:56pm

Due to a recent unfortunate event, my life will be undergoing several very negative, radical changes over the next few months that will be wide-reaching in that they greatly impact not only my life, but the lives of my mom, my dad and Allie. These consequences will last a lifetime for me and place others under an undue strain for what looks to be well over a year, possibly two. I'd promise to make it up somehow but know I am not only incapable of doing so as I am not even capable being a functional adult at this point in time. I am more than willing to accept what I have coming to me but am torn to pieces that my life is quite negatively impacting the lives of others. On a less serious note, this has forced me to withdraw this semester from school and will also be costing me several thousand dollars.

I always liked that I was very self-sufficient and had my shit together. Now I'm falling apart all over and loathe myself for it. I don't know if I'd show the patience and understanding that my parents, and more so Allie, have shown. I understand that if any one of them wants out at any time, they just need to say the word. I won't hold it against them as I wouldn't want to be associated with me or deal with me at this point in my life either.