Wednesday, December 20, 2006, 1:21pm
So the past three nights I've been getting anywhere from one to three hours of sleep. My parents have met Allie and Mom is all excited about her coming over on Christmas eve. I've got to finish one paper tonight and study for my last final, math, that is tomorrow. Aside from that, I've got nothing but work until school starts up again on January 22, 2007.
Allie is home and spends most of her time just hanging out. She's sort of in limbo. Can't get a job, got surgery coming up, so she's stuck in a holding pattern. The issues I have are being put on hold. I just need to ride things out. She said she is OK with me feeling strongly about certain things, but that I need to look at the bigger picture. And I do see the bigger picture, it's just tough for me since it really does eat away at me. She doesn't apologize for who she is and while I know that she's an adult and entitled to make her own decisions, I can't apologize for myself either.
Anyhow, she asked me out of the blue if I wanted to hang out last night, so we spent last night like we spend most nights together, just joking around.